how you know exactly what to say to annoy me, upset me and make me smile
i hate how you can manipulate me so easily. i hate how i let myself believe everything you say
and i hate the way it affects me. i hate how you make me smile so much. i hate how you know exactly what to do to make me happy. i hate how i can get the best laughs with you. i hate the way your always honest with me, regardless of whether it will hurt me. i hate the way you are slowly forgetting everything we had. i hate how im letting myself come and live with you in 2 weeks. i hate the way you are my best friend. i hate myself for thinking you are amazing, genuine, gorgeous and breath taking. most of all, i hate how much i love you and i hate the fact that no matter what, no matter how much you hurt me, i always always will
bearing in mind, you knew i could have handled the situation soooo much better than you, you still persisted in acting like a complete dick about it? why was i even surprised? i dont know how i could have possibly convinved myself that you had changed, you’ll always be the same wanker that you always were, your just not so good at hiding it anymore are you? know what? the sooner you fucking leave, the better things will be, for everyone, you arrogant waste of space.
i can only tell you what it feels like and right now its a steel knife in my windpipe, i cant breath but i still fight while i can fight as long as the wrong feels right its like im in flight, high off of love, drunk from my hate its like im huffing paint and i love it the more i suffer i suffocate and right before im about to drown she rescusitates me she fucking hates me and i love it, wait, where you going? im leavin you, no you aint come back we’re runnin right back here we go again its so insane cause when its goin good its goin great im superman with the wind at his back shes lois lane but when its bad its awful i feel so ashamed, i snap, whos that dude? i dont even know his name, i laid hands on her i’ll never stoop so low again, i guess i dont know my own strength,
just gonna stand there and watch me burn? thats alright because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry? thats alright because i love the way you lie, i love the way you lie <3
did it become ok for one person to tell soul destroying lies to another person? do they even consider how it will affect said other person? no i somehow dont thinkso. so you, yes YOU, when you read this, i want you to know that you make me fucking sick, you are a disgusting excuse of a person and i hope you reap what you fucking sew cause one day you’ll fall, one of those bad ones, like off a tower block, and know what you’ll land on? solid fucking concrete you wanker.
well it was an interesting hair colour and it got some positive comments, however i cant put up with looking like an orange paint colour chart, ranging from light tangerine - fluorescent orange - deep copper - NO THANKYOU! hello dark blonde hair dye….also…hello wig (as my hair is without a doubt going to fall out with all the dying i do to it)! work was fantastic, i love it. i am currently doing my hair, then gym time, then time with nick <3 yay.
my mother is going to ring my neck when she gets in as i am currently modelling a hayley williams look, in a desperate attempt to get blonde hair…the bleaching is done but the blonde is still setting into my hair so we shall see how it goes! i have bad feelings about this
yeah so the method for hair lightening which involves lemon juice? that doesnt seem to work all that well, if anyone has ANY tips on lightening hair which is already coloured pleaseeeee share them with me, thanks!
i have finally decided that i am definately going blonde. i am doing it tomorrow, and i am doing it myself. god im scared! the masterplan is to put a prelightener through it as it is currently red, that will probably turn it some kind of odd gingery colour, then just fire a blonde over the top of it..will it work? i honestly have no clue, but if all goes wrong, i’ll just fire a brown dye back over it! i have eaten like a horse all day, mcdonalds, toffees, toast….hello gym.